Musing and Ramblings

Consuming is so much easier than creating.

I’m working on reducing my consumption (of social media, at least) but I haven’t really implemented any creation to take its place yet. I have at least been better about replacing with more intentional consumption and reading on my kindle instead of my iphone (baby steps to unbreak my brain).

We’re simultaneously solidifying and coming to terms with our plans to move out of state and work towards early retirement. I have ~feelings, not just because we’ll moving back into my late mom’s house, but also just moving “back home” still feels like a failure to my ego, even though it is much more a well-thought-out plan. Even though we plan to be ready to start the move some time in August, it feels so far away and I’m having trouble sitting with the uncertainty of it all. Probably if I would get off my rear and do some of the actual steps we need to do (looking up deeds, investigating contractors, etc) it might suddenly seem really close?

In semi-related news to the aforementioned doing things, upon realizing that Omnifocus now has an inclusive subscription model, I downloaded Omnifocus this week and have been enjoying it quite a bit again. Whether it’s just the fun of new a toy tool, or the fog of the languishing finally lifting since I’ve gotten my second jab, I can’t say – but I’m enjoying it. And it inspired me to make this post, even if it was solely just to clear the overdue marker for this on lovely to do I made myself.

a screengrab of an overdue to do item that says "fucking post something"

Hello again, again

I spend too much time thinking about blogging and so little time actually blogging. I’d really like to set a schedule and commit to it. I really miss old-school blogging but there are still some good ones out there that give me the warm fuzzies (and good doses of inspiration).

As of last week, I’m halfway (or really more like one-third) vaccinated and can’t wait to get my second (Team Pfizer) shot. I took 3 days off work so if I feel puny that’s fine and if I don’t I’ll still get to take extra naps. Win/win in my book.

I’m also burnt out on work and not only daydreaming about, but actually working on a 5 year retirement plan. It’s probably going to be a partial pain in the ass, and require some uncomfortable compromise, but the thought of only a few more years of 40-hour weeks is so enticing.

So, that’s the recent state of Z, with more updates to come hopefully sooner rather than later.

Where did summer go?

Work has been extra extra lately and I’m trying (and mostly failing) to get into a better routine which encompasses all the things I want to touch in a day.

I’ve heard several people mention a sense of waiting for summer to come and realizing it is almost gone. I count myself among them. The early rain here in Austin lends to that and I can’t quite figure out what season I’m supposed to be feeling.

But I’ve got my personal laptop back from the computer doctor and I’m not on-call for work for another few months, so maybe we’ll meet here again before another month passes.

Feast or Famine

That’s how it goes around here. If I don’t commit to daily (or at least scheduled) postings, it is far too easy to let the days get away from me. Especially when there is still not much to report.

This week, on top of keeping up with my daily Artist’s pages, I’ve felt very motivated to declutter more and more. In thinking more about who I am and how I want to grow and where I want to be, there is just a lot of stuff that doesn’t play any role in that. Nor does it spark joy or bring value or whatever other criteria I tried applying.

There’s still plenty to go but I’m feeling lighter and it’s nice to feel the space in my surroundings translate into the feeling of lightness and space in my brain.

An Artist

Not only did I start a thing this week, I joined a group with all other females and made a commitment to finish this time. This is so far out of my comfort zone on multiple levels, but it’s overdue.

4-Day Weekend

picture of the sunset

I’m off work for a much needed extra-long weekend. I have visions of home projects and kiddie pool splashing, mid day napping and books with actual pages reading.

Buddies

Everyone has pets that actually belong to your neighbors but you’re attuned to their schedule and plan your walks around? Right? (I missed the up-close shot because I was too busy giving them good boy pats)

Do you also keep the flyer for a neighbor’s lost cat on your console table and give it pets and well-wishes all day? Okay good, cause same. (send skittish Bane some come home thoughts please)

The More of Less

I’m reading again, which is what I want to be doing. I turned on the Screen Time tracking on my phone recently and it’s just sad. So I’m changing it.

You are what you do, not what you say you’ll do. – Carl Jung

Lazy Sunday

We got a touch of rain from Tropical Storm Hanna this weekend so there wasn’t much small pool splashing. But the rain did cool things off a touch so we got in a few nice long walks.

It’s a short week of work thanks to an awesome pair of company-wide mental health days, and I could certainly use them (even though I have full week off coming very soon).

Hopefully I’ll make the time to sit down and come up with some themes or prompts for these blog posts, since I can only illustrate my boringness in so many words before we both fall asleep. 😴

Forensic Files

It sure is something when you’re like “oh hey, my depression had lifted enough that I can watch my murder shows again.” But hey, that’s what makes this 128th day of the pandemic special. LOLSOB